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The more I play with the Wii U gamepad, the more I get used to it. It's definitely enormous, but I'm starting to feel that it's definitely manageable. It's not nearly as awkward or cumbersome as I'd imagined when I first unearthed it from its packaging.Using it as a secondary TV remote is also a really nice feature.Helpfully, the TV remote functionality is not lost when the Wii U is turned off. I've been using it as my primary TV remote despite its size just because it's ridiculously cool.

I also finally resumed my weightlifting and pushups tonight because the pain has started to subside. I'm sure I'll feel it again with renewed severity tomorrow morning, but I'm glad I'm getting back to it, regardless. I really want to put a lot of myself into this whole exercise regimen. I'm afraid of flaking out as I have so many times before. I don't want that to be me this time. I want to be a better version of myself. I did eat quite a bit more than usual today because I ate Mexican with my mother--but I think eating out occasionally is probably fine. I just shouldn't make a habit of it.

I'm not feeling as energetic as I had hoped today. Exercise does go a long way toward increasing energy levels and mood, but there are a ton of other factors to consider. I'm woefully dependent on caffeine, for instance, and despite downing a 20 oz' Red Bull in the afternoon, I'm still feeling pretty listless in the evening. I'm not sure exactly what the root cause of my lethargy is. Maybe I ate too much. I'm not sure. I really liked what I had at the Mexican restaurant and I didn't think I'd overdone it at the time--but I have been eating very light the past few days. Maybe my stomach wasn't ready for such an extreme change?

The only other thing that was different about today is the fact that I was actually off work--meaning I got a full night's sleep for once! You'd think getting an appropriate number of hours of rest would significantly improve my mood and energy level, but so far it doesn't seem that's been the case. It's entirely possible that I slept for too long, mind you. I don't recall exactly how long I slept, but it could have easily been 10-12 hours. I've read a lot online (and can corroborate with personal experience) that oversleeping has a negative impact on energy level. I can't help it though--I've been exhausted recently with the drastic change in my activity.

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I am currently in a tremendous amount of pain due to exercise. I feel as if I can barely move my arms without succumbing to agony arcing through my upper torso. That's okay though, because that means I'm doing it right, probably! Despite being sore and miserable all day today, I went on a brief run as soon as I got home. This pumped me up quite a bit, but also significantly reduced my capacity for breathing. I now have a sore throat, sore legs, and my abs hurt a little more. I am just not in great shape right now.

Let's hope I'll be in great shape once a year passes of me consistently adhering to my workout and diet regime. Of course, it's not much of a regime at the moment, but I'm putting forth genuine effort on this. The wracking pain coursing through my body should be no small testament to that. I would like to think that the pitiful ache will soon be replaced by a triumphant strength and energy like nothing I've ever felt before! I can at least dream that this might happen. These first few weeks are going to be tough, I think. I'm going to be hobbling around work complaining and generally being a terrible human being for some time. Assuming I don't completely alienate my coworkers, I think I'll come out the other side a much better person!

Exercising isn't the only thing I plan on doing over the next few days (and months), however. I have other plans, too! I'm going to get a haircut soon because I think I've pretty much given up on long hair for the time being. Maybe once I'm ridiculously buff and good looking I'll try it out again, but I think for now I'm more suited to a neater, shorter cut. I still plan on keeping a lot of length on the top, but we'll see how that pans out. I'm going to be going clothes shopping on Tuesday night as well--and my cousin's going to tag along. I'm pretty clueless when it comes to fashion, but I'd like for that to change! Dressing nicely is a huge confidence boost. I don't have a lot of room to work with as far as my work uniform is concerned, but I'm sure I can spice it up a little bit, at least. Having some clothes to wear on those rare times I actually leave the house on a day off would be very handy as well.

Seriously though, I just cannot get over how miserably in pain I am right now. I skipped my pushups and weightlifting tonight out of sheer necessity. I think I might have broken my arms right off if I'd even attempted it. I was determined not to cop out though, so I went on an agonizing run in the chill night before nearly collapsing at a neighbor's mailbox. I am not in great shape right now. This exercise regime is something that is needed for me, and it's something I should have started doing a long time ago (well, I did, but I should have kept doing it).

Once my friend comes back from his mission trip in Bulgaria, he plans on doing some mountain climbing. He's invited me to come along, so it would be a great thing if I were actually in good enough shape to do something like that. I've never climbed a mountain before, but I can only imagine it's not a super easy thing to do when you're a fat blob monster like myself. I will shed that layer of blob and emerge anew as some kind of chiseled phoenix man. It will happen. Probably.